you're a mystery yourself

Friday, August 6, 2010

9:50 PM

We are the perfect couple.

but perfection dosent exist, but we manage to overcome it.

god is jealous of this perfection..

the test begins and no matter how high the risk and how dangerous it is..

this proves our worth,

never letting go that hand.

bring it on.

&the beauty.

5:42 PM

3 more days..

destiny..

an uncertain future..

a dark room..

quiet...

listening to your heart beat..

and falling asleep in ur arms..

whispering..

sleep well baby..

the lines of fate...

&the beauty.

12:20 AM

L is for the way you look at me

O is for the only one I see

V is very very extraordinary

E is even more than any one that you adore can

LOVE is all that I can give to you

LOVE is more than just a game for you

two in love can make it

take my heart but don't break it

love can make for me and you

&the beauty.

12:35 AM

Haoen.

Needs a miracle..

Needs your love..

its a lonely night..

quiet, cold and dark..

last day at my attachment...

less then 10 days...

10 days...

iloveyoulikethebeeslovehoney..

&the beauty.

12:25 PM

before i leave..

i love you...

i do..

&the beauty.

12:31 PM

it just came down on me..

a wound i cnt stop...

the remorse i feel..

the words that i said too late...

the lil haoen i always bring to my dreams...

the 3 words that i cant say to u anymore.

&the beauty.

3:46 PM

sometimes i wish..

all these is really just a dream..

please just wake me up and tell me its nt true..

that ur heart is still here with me my love..

every night just keep's getting harder and harder to fall asleep.

i know..

i am sorry friends..

u guys dont wanna see me get hurt..

but i just love her..

and i know i can have many wonderful memories with another girl..

but a girl like her.. to me..

its hard to come by and the things that we been thru..

i feel tat its so special..

so hard to let go..

i shouldnt say hard to let go..

its cant let go at all.

altho in the pass.. i m a stubborn freak..

i say things.. i dont mean it..

until now i really lose it.. i've grown mature.

nt more saying bout the effort i've put into her..

i find it a pity to let it go to waste..

and i still think.. both of us still deserve a second chance...

and we can still put in effort into this r/s..

Ppl reject us because they only see things in the outer part..

they donno the feeling between the both of us..
only me and u know fei...

and i belive u feel it too..

i hope its really nt 1 sided...

or it really is...

my mind... is seriously so confuse..

and tired..

i've been thinking..
of what u said..

i know u too well fei..
u asked me what if 1 day my feelings faded..
i will answer u this..

every r/s has to go thru this process..
why do ppl get married..
and have a family..
its nt just because of resposiblilty..
but the love they been thru.
and the proccess is still on till the day they r no longer on earth.
this is what makes a lasting r/s...

and this is one of the procces i m in right now..
alone..
waiting if fate or god is playing wif me..

and i've been thru the proccess of losing u..
and i know..
the pain inside me...
so unbearable..
it feels as if..
its taking my life away slowly..

what more can i say..
in order to make u return to my arms...

whr r u my baby..
baby.. i still love you..
come back to me please..

i've learnt my lesson..
belive in me..
belive in our love..

ur smile.. is the reason why i m smiling.
ur rain is the reason why i m sad.
ur love... is what makes me feel that i m alive.

forget the past..
let me hold ur hand and see the future tgt..

...

P.S.. I Love You

&the beauty.